Coming from the religious background I do, I get asked fairly often, "Are you still Christian?" In my view this is a rather cheap way of doing business. I would much rather be asked questions about the mysteries such religions are based on, such as: what does "heaven" mean to you? What is the relationship of man to so-called nature?, man to divinity? Why are we gifted with free will? What does talking to God mean to you? and other questions of that sort. The problem is though, those questions aren't formulas where neat answers can be given, as it is with simply "Are you Christian?" In other words, these sorts of questions aren't rigid classification but an attempt at wiggly understanding.
To answer this question then, I'll have to explain in a sort of roundabout way. Read More
***As a disclaimer to forthcoming scrutiny, I want to add that I in no way expect the previous thoughts to be in their final form. As I stated in my first post on this website: I hope for this to be a casual place to "hash out" my ideas and observations on the world, almost in essay form, but more so like a journal — call it a journal-essaic approach. In that sense I mean not to be taken too seriously. In an ideal fantasy I have, these essays would be refined in thought and form, then organized into a book with an as yet unbeknownst title and focus/subject. I do want and encourage feedback from a third-party reader so as to grow and learn, but I repeat: this is not final form, that is — definite. I read somewhere, roughly, "the complex relationships of reality can never be described to completion in symbols, that is, words. They are utterances and slices, a spotlight in the dark." This is to say, anything you read, especially on the subject of philosophy or religion, by nature of being expressed in words, has it's shortcomings. These shortcomings do not however disqualify the merit of what was expressed. That's all. Read More
Maybe it's in my imagination, or my own expectations for myself, but I feel pressure sometimes when I write to come up with something completely new. This leads me to ask myself, what I'm writing for each time I want to begin. Why would someone want to read this? I still haven't got an airtight answer. There's nothing new here except a glimpse into my head, and who really needs that? So many questions I could ask myself in doubt but, do the questions themselves have a basis? Do I need validation from other for this writing to be satisfactory? Read More
I'm going to write for a minute about why I love this painting, Gateless Gate. Read More
Anytime I write, it's usually to no 'end' except that of my stream of thoughts. I see or experience something out in the world: a good book, a song, a conversation, looking out on the ocean, my own internal thoughts, just living, and it snowballs into.. this writing. I couldn't be writing to convince anyone of anything because I'm not an authority on any one subject. This affords me the opportunity to just observe, experience, and wonder about whatever it is that's happening in front of me. . Read More